Art block again + personal art reminders

So much for that last journal ramble. lol
Seriously that made me feel so much better. I did my best to keep the person/s anonymous, nobody white-knighted, and nobody snooped around asking who I was talking about, even in notes. Thank you so much for being mature about this, guys. That was exactly how I wanted it to be. Even from my ex-friend's side, thanks for suddenly dropping your friendship with me for whatever reason, but thanks all the same for not going drama mode. At least (I think, I hope), you're growing up. And that's good.

What can I say about it? Keep it up. Do it for yourself. And my word of advice: be genuine. Love people for their whole selves, and don't run away easily at the sight of flaws and problems. Running away only gives you more problems.

See how always running away in video games makes you weak and unable to progress? You don't "level up". You get left behind. You gotta face problems head on. And if it still doesn't work out? Hey, at least you tried. You'll see all that hard work will pay off at another door that will open for you.

If you want people to love you for real, you gotta prove them you have the capacity to love unconditionally.

So yes, so much for that.

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Gonna write this as a reminder because... I OWE A LOT OF ART, LIKE SERIOUSLY!

Okay, these are among my TOP priorities.


Kiriban prize.
I seriously always had this at the back of my mind; I'll work on it when I get a functioning netbook!


SERIOUSLY I feel SO horrible I haven't given you your prize yet... this is more overdue than a bottle of century-old wine! Honestly, I was working on it on my other netbook that had also broken down before I could finish it!


Runner-up sketch prize, right? I'll be working on it after I finish the kiriban winner!

If I owe you something, please let me know!
You can also talk to me via notes/comments so we can discuss it in better detail.

I seriously feel horrible for not working on these for years... and now my netbooks are both dead. Both of them. I'm updating using mobile.

Also if you want to change something in your prize/art trade before I draw it, please tell me so I can take note of it!

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I'll be real here... I've been "depressed" for a while now. "Depressed", because it's not clinically proven and I think it may be just a common phase and longing for a real purpose.

If anyone's noticed I only post quick uncoloured doodles or stuff, that's the reason. I really missed the days I drew because I felt like it. I loved drawing for my friends and even fans and seeing their reactions. I think it's what I need to get back; I try drawing and drawing, I try working on original projects to try feeling it, but it's just not working you know? It all feels... dull, or dead.

Anyway... sorry for that rant! If it's not too much, I just really need some help here... how do you guys get your passion and inspiration to draw? I really need it right about now.